Jealousy

 I hate jealousy. I guess I should say that I hate being jealous. I can easily handle envy. I face envy on a daily basis. I'm envious of my best friend and her husband, I'm envious of my friends who have already graduated, and the ones who have jobs. I'm envious of the people around me who seem to handle things better than I do, but I don't handle jealousy well. To me it's like a toxin coursing through my veins. It starts small, then it grows. The worst part is that instead of feeling envious like I think I should, I'm mad at the situation. It seems like it's always someone or something else. Do I talk? No, not really... I get a how's school? It's starting to feel more like, "Oh that's right... you're still in college... aren't you ever going to finish?"

I guess this is something that I need to work on. I've always thought envy was ok... but now that I'm thinking about it... isn't envy one of the seven deadly sins?