I'm lost again. Lost in this world where people can't take care of themselves. Where it's MY job to fix their problems. It's not like I haven't done enough to help already. I can't fix my own problems, how in the world can I fix theirs? The stress is making me physically sick. I love her, but I can't do this any more. I feel like the weakest strong person ever. Anyone know a good psychologist, who doesn't charge much? The bottom of a bottle just doesn't appeal to me. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I know my friends are there to listen... and I appreciate that, more than they know, but I really need someone who is completely impartial. Someone who isn't going to judge me or just tell me what I want to hear.
It's my favorite time of year and instead of being all happy and excited like I should be, I'm stressed, down on myself and alone.
Hopefully things will improve.
1 comment:
As you said- we're always here. But I understand someone's hearing advice from the same people isn't enough to change the circumstance. I (wholeheartedly) believe you need to just go a completely different direction. I don't want to lose you, but starting over somewhere different. Like get a job you're happy with part time and move. Staying stagnant isn't healthy. I love you very much but I hate to see you pulled down due to things outside your control. Remember you live your life once- and you've done EVERYTHING you possibly can to make this better- but you're just one person. Who deserves so much more.
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