Quote of a Lifetime

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you have never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, Be afraid that it will never begin!"

My brother sent me this quote some time ago and recently I rediscovered it while I was cleaning out my inbox. It's definitely a quote that makes you stop and think about the things in your life. I truly feel blessed to be surrounded by the people in my life. Not just the people in my family, and not just the people I see on a regular basis. It's the delicate balance of all of those people who have helped to shape me into the woman I am today.

I've been let down by the very person who was never supposed to let me down. I've had my heart broken more than once, and yes it was harder the second time. I'm sure I've even broken a heart or two, though never intentionally, and believe me when I say that I remembered what it felt like to have mine broken. To the point of thinking of sacrificing my own happiness to save theirs. I've fought with some of my best friends, though usually it flies under the radar. I'm sure I've blamed new for something old did, and I'm sure I'll do it again. I've spent quite a bit of time crying because time is passing too fast, and because I've lost someone I love.

Due to all of this, I will try to remember to take too many pictures, laugh too much and love like I've never been hurt. This if the final page of one chapter of my book, but there are many more chapters to follow. I look forward to turning the pages and seeing what the future will bring.

Jealousy

 I hate jealousy. I guess I should say that I hate being jealous. I can easily handle envy. I face envy on a daily basis. I'm envious of my best friend and her husband, I'm envious of my friends who have already graduated, and the ones who have jobs. I'm envious of the people around me who seem to handle things better than I do, but I don't handle jealousy well. To me it's like a toxin coursing through my veins. It starts small, then it grows. The worst part is that instead of feeling envious like I think I should, I'm mad at the situation. It seems like it's always someone or something else. Do I talk? No, not really... I get a how's school? It's starting to feel more like, "Oh that's right... you're still in college... aren't you ever going to finish?"

I guess this is something that I need to work on. I've always thought envy was ok... but now that I'm thinking about it... isn't envy one of the seven deadly sins?